Monday, August 20, 2012

The things you need to lose can be as important as the things you need to gain



This 招财猫 is what I wanted for christmas last year. But I can't find any cute or attractive one. Finally manage to found a cute one and ahzý got it for me! As well as the 2 pictures above. Wo love him! Never failed to gimme what I want.

Okay I'm back to a day-job with sandra at jurong east now. I can't accept the fact that it's a 6 days work............ Hai.

Monday, August 13, 2012



Hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone

Everything I am
And everything in me
Wants to be the one
You wanted me to be

I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
If only for your good

So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared
You won't always be there

Roaming through this darkness
I'm alive but I'm alone
Part of me is fighting this
But part of me is gone

Monday, August 6, 2012

Life in mono

Happy birthday to the twinz sister, sandra and aunty! :-)




Sunday, August 5, 2012

The emptiness you fear, decisions that you make clear


Probably the most miserable night of my life on my friday and saturday night 'cos ahzý neglect me! Went to a few places before I met up with yahui at junction 10 on saturday night. Great catch up!  

Friday, August 3, 2012

习惯两个人

My all time favourite blackberry left me once again... I guess this is the 5th time a blackberry die on me.. FINALLY this time I chose to get an iPhone! I felt stupid if I were to get a blackberry again.. So, my dearest ahzý bought me an iPhone. ❤

Okay, not a bad choice to get an iPhone after all as I managed to customized things on my own.

There's one thing I'm still very uncomfortable about iPhone is the typing. I GOT A HARD TIME TYPING EVERYTIME. I still prefer to type with a blackberry............

Congratz to my sissy! Here's the very naughty chantel and trinny's younger brother. As I'm back to day-job like finally and I've been working almost everyday. So I still haven't get a chance to see baby boy yet.. Gotta visit sissy soon with ahzý.


You're the first face that I see
And the last thing I think about
You're the reason that I’m alive
You're what i can’t live without
You're what i can’t live without

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Friday, July 20, 2012

有时候,心里突然冒出一种厌倦的情绪,觉得自己很累很累


With what I mean, how I say. It's hard to write what I can't feel. when all you want is mass appeal. what you want, it isn't real.

You should know most of it's fake. Smoke and mirrors, for money's sake. Start to think of when you'll stray. Loose it all be stuck this way. Between the lines, I'm not okay.


After town..
I drop by boon lay to look for my uncle cucumber.
Dinner with ahzý & co. next and then home.
I've long forgotten how I used to party all night in the past, how happening my life used to be and how I spend my days even when I'm jobless. Now my life style is totally different. But it's a good thing anyway, 24/7 with my dearest ahzý 是幸褔的.

Whatever it is, with ahzý around, I know I will survive well. 

"Don't depend on anyone, because even your shadow leaves you when you're in darkness" 

Don't waste your life fulfilling someone else's dreams or desires. Forget about impressing people. People buy things they don't need with money they don't have to impress people they don't know, it's a waste of time.....

Thursday, July 19, 2012

好朋友 ,原谅我渐渐少去的问候


我们不能时时在身边 ,好像电话简讯也没有了
我们不能第一时间分享彼此的快乐与不快乐 ,好像变的冷漠沉默了
我们不能再一起去吃饭 ,一起说说笑笑 ,好像走出彼此的世界了

We no longer have a small contradiction
No longer laughing so brazenly
As if around a little something
But not so important

我们都有了新的生活新的环境 ,我们都在面对新的事 ,新的人陪在我们身边分享着我们的喜怒哀乐
有时候也会想起想起曾经的我们 ,有时候一个小物品就会勾起一大串一大串的回忆
关于你关于我们 ,甚至连那一句话都记得清楚
当时的笑当时的闹时间改变了什么 ,其实什么都没有
时间让我们从过去到现在冲淡的是回忆 ,带不走的也是回忆

感激遇到你,陪我走过那一段长长的路那时的我
幼稚不成熟那时的我,遇到一个又一个坎
是你们陪我成长,没有丢下我

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Higher state of consciousness

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect – you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together. But if she can make you laugh, and admit to being human & making mistakes, hold onto her & give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break, a heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad."

I hate the way you talk to me, I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you're not around. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit.

Monday, July 16, 2012

A message from my heart it's too loud to stay apart

Take each day as it comes, live today for today, yesterday's problems are where they belong – in the past – you cannot change them, don't carry the burdens of yesterday.


Sunday, July 15, 2012

When the sun fades out, I will stay awake

Much is said about having soul-mates, sister, brother, best friend, loved ones or just plain people in your lives, they each adds their own flavour and spice into your world. You can take what you need from them, discard what could be damaging to your life, and smile about the parts you adore but can't adopt. Learn from other's experiences, watch with a close eye where they may or may not go wrong in situations they are faced with. When they give you advice about things, you have the option to use or discard of it and they have the same privilege.

Walking through life without anyone could be quite a sad and lonely road. One where many mistakes will be made, where you will independently have to decide what's right and what's wrong, what's acceptable and what's not. So admittedly, having a hundred odd friends, loved ones in your midst's can be beneficial to your survival in today's environment. When you stumble and fall, they might be there to catch you..

At the same time, as much as they can be there for you, they can disappear too. In one go, everything you know can change, and it can all be gone. So if you find yourself the somewhat mislead individual, abandoned by those who used to call themselves friends, sister, brother, best friend, soul-mate.. Constantly remind yourself, don't depend on anyone, because even your shadow leaves you when you're in darkness.

Saturday, July 14, 2012

Over time it came undone

As much as I would change all these things, I have learnt from them. Time is there to teach us, people help along, and you have to learn your lesson. Time is what we want most, but what we use worst. Look at the people around you, see how they fit in, what has happened with each one of them, what you have learnt and remind yourself that everything happens for a reason..

Everyday we faced with more and more issues, they may be for that day alone or build on the other thousands of issues we may have already. We may or may not deal with these issues, our choice. It may or may not be only our issue to deal with, there could be several people reliant on this issue getting resolved. Something that may seem insignificant to some could seem life shattering to someone else. Issues, problems, quarrels, sad moments.. But whatever it may be is not guaranteed to be there forever.

Sunday, July 1, 2012

Be your sound

We'll build our fortress
To keep them out
And in a world gone silent
I'll be your sound
And if they try to hurt you
I'll tear them down

Sunday, June 24, 2012

Time waits for no man

Easier said than done, sometimes when you are in a situation you know the potential outcome; you know the good and the bad. And sometimes you don’t. Don’t wait to get to the point of no return and then wish things were different.

Saturday, June 9, 2012

Happy birthday dearest valerie

It has been said that real friends are very hard to find. The ones that stay when times are tough. A real friend - the lasting kind. As I travel through this life, I know one thing is true.. 5 years down the road, I've got you! Happy 21st birthday, I love you like always.

Monday, June 4, 2012

Hearts unspoken



Standing in the rain
Thinking of a way
To keep these feelings inside

Walk away from here
Before the words appear
I will be silent

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Cast your spell

Satisfaction in life comes in everything that's sinful. This sinful life just won't let it be, and I can't deny the struggles inside me.

Saturday, May 26, 2012

Least expectation, least disappointment

Life was easier when we were young. The only difference is we're older, and the older we get, the more we complicate things for ourselves. It's easy to feel like you don't need help, but it's harder to walk on your own.

When we were young we saw the world through simple, hopeful eyes. We knew what we wanted and we had no biases or concealed agendas. We liked people who smiled. We avoided people who frowned. We ate when we were hungry, drank when we were thirsty, and slept when we were tired..

As we grew older our minds started to get affected by negative external influences. At some point we began to hesitate and question our instincts. When a new obstacle or growing pain arose, we stumbled and a fell down. This happened several times. Eventually we decided we didn't want to fall again, but rather than solving the problem that caused us to fall, we avoided it all.

We drank alcohol we drugged to numb our wounds. We worked late nights on purpose to avoid unresolved conflicts at home. We started holding grudges, playing mind games, and subtly deceiving others and ourselves to get ahead. And when it didn't work out, we lived above our means, did everything that wasn't suppose to be. Over the course of time, we made our lives more and more difficult, and we started losing touch with who we really are and what we really need.

What's done is done. Emotional rage only makes matters worse, tragedies are rarely as bad as they seem. Don't waste your life fulfilling someone else's dreams or desires. Forget about impressing people. People buy things they don't need with money, they don't have to impress people they don't know, it's a waste of time.

Like everything stayed the same through out these days, yet looking back at where I was around this exact time last year, everything was just so different.

Everyone make mistakes. Crap happens. But there's no reason to stress out yourself and everyone around you because of it. If something won't be significant to you 3 days / 3 months / 3 years from now, don't waste all your time worrying about it now. Negative thinking creates negative results while positive thinking creates positive results, lose the negative attitude.

In order to get, you have to give.

Friday, May 25, 2012

Johnny Cash - Hurt

I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel. I focus on the pain, the only thing that's real. The needle tears a hole, the old familiar sting. Try to kill it all away, but I remember everything. What have I become, my sweetest friend. Everyone I know, goes away in the end. Beneath the stains of time, the feelings disappear. You are someone else, I am still right here. If I could start again, a million miles away. I will keep myself, I would find a way.

Thursday, May 24, 2012

8 years and counting on

Cheers to the shitz we talked, the guys we stalked, the way we shop, the laughters we can't stop, the gossips we spill, our looks that could kill, to having each other's back, to the next morning getting the facts, downing the beers, spilling the tears, we'll stay together through the years. And where the years took us, no place is too far. We will think of each other, wherever we are. Year goes by, memories made. Those people we met, the changes in our lives. No matter what happened, I'll always be there. One word, irreplaceable.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUPERWOMAN!