有时候，心里突然冒出一种厌倦的情绪，觉得自己很累很累

With what I mean, how I say. It's hard to write what I can't feel. when all you want is mass appeal. what you want, it isn't real.

You should know most of it's fake. Smoke and mirrors, for money's sake. Start to think of when you'll stray. Loose it all be stuck this way. Between the lines, I'm not okay.

After town..

I drop by boon lay to look for my uncle cucumber.
Dinner with ahzý & co. next and then home.
I've long forgotten how I used to party all night in the past, how happening my life used to be and how I spend my days even when I'm jobless. Now my life style is totally different. But it's a good thing anyway, 24/7 with my dearest ahzý 是幸褔的.

Whatever it is, with ahzý around, I know I will survive well. 

"Don't depend on anyone, because even your shadow leaves you when you're in darkness" 

Don't waste your life fulfilling someone else's dreams or desires. Forget about impressing people. People buy things they don't need with money they don't have to impress people they don't know, it's a waste of time.....