Least expectation, least disappointment

Life was easier when we were young. The only difference is we're older, and the older we get, the more we complicate things for ourselves. It's easy to feel like you don't need help, but it's harder to walk on your own.

When we were young we saw the world through simple, hopeful eyes. We knew what we wanted and we had no biases or concealed agendas. We liked people who smiled. We avoided people who frowned. We ate when we were hungry, drank when we were thirsty, and slept when we were tired..

As we grew older our minds started to get affected by negative external influences. At some point we began to hesitate and question our instincts. When a new obstacle or growing pain arose, we stumbled and a fell down. This happened several times. Eventually we decided we didn't want to fall again, but rather than solving the problem that caused us to fall, we avoided it all.

We drank alcohol we drugged to numb our wounds. We worked late nights on purpose to avoid unresolved conflicts at home. We started holding grudges, playing mind games, and subtly deceiving others and ourselves to get ahead. And when it didn't work out, we lived above our means, did everything that wasn't suppose to be. Over the course of time, we made our lives more and more difficult, and we started losing touch with who we really are and what we really need.

What's done is done. Emotional rage only makes matters worse, tragedies are rarely as bad as they seem. Don't waste your life fulfilling someone else's dreams or desires. Forget about impressing people. People buy things they don't need with money, they don't have to impress people they don't know, it's a waste of time.

Like everything stayed the same through out these days, yet looking back at where I was around this exact time last year, everything was just so different.

Everyone make mistakes. Crap happens. But there's no reason to stress out yourself and everyone around you because of it. If something won't be significant to you 3 days / 3 months / 3 years from now, don't waste all your time worrying about it now. Negative thinking creates negative results while positive thinking creates positive results, lose the negative attitude.

In order to get, you have to give.