Monday, May 13, 2013

我曾经以为爱情应该诚实 但诚实却是最尖锐的刀子


Looking back at the beginning, when life was just me and you.. Yet I can't seems to find the words to say when everything I've ever thought gets swept away. Now looking ahead to all the plans that you made, those dreams that we had... Through all these sleepless nights without you, I still feel it. But across those miles away, I'm never getting used to it.. 

In every way I tried to stop my mind from coming up with the worst scenarios, I'm just hoping that these thoughts wouldn't translate in reality.

Your reaction makes me wanna stay quiet even when there's so much for me to say. But sometimes it's not worth saying anything at all 'cos words kill. Not physically, but mentally. That's when our mind starts to get affected by negative external influences, we began to hesitate and question our instincts. But rather than solving problems, we avoided it all.

Felt so helpless each time when I see the spiritless you back home every night and yet I can't seem to be of much help.. I run out of words that could explain all those feelings. The harder that I try, push away every truth and silence keep returning.

Till I've learned to listen through silence, also learned to expect the lowest out of the people I thought the highest of. 'Cos nothing hurts more than being disappointed by someone you never expect them to.

Shadows bleeding through the light, where the love once shined so bright. Bruised and battered by your words. dazed and shattered now it hurts. Haven't I always loved you?

我怀念的 是你很激动
求我原谅 抱
得我都痛


I LOVE YOU NOW, I LOVE YOU STILL.
ALWAYS HAVE AND ALWAYS WILL.